purposeless living?! no...really.

so i recently had my numbers done.

i, as one, consider myself to be fairly well-versed in the world of astrology and the like (ok..maybe a stretch)..well, than, at least a step or two ahead of the average horoscope reader, if you will...(fine..fine..)..i know this much: i am an aquarian. my moon is in virgo. my rising is capricorn. and i'm a hierophant. i am AT LEAST quite well-versed about aquarians. i must say, i do know a bit about virgos. i'm fairly familiar with the capricorns. and i've been introduced to the characteristics of the hierophants.

buuut, numerology. add your birthday up, right? month-date-year, right? apparantly, WRONG. i thought i knew it all about the ole numbers. but, i have been proved wrong. (and its not just #s either-- its letters in your name & all kinds of crazy things).

anyhow. point being, numerology proved to be an extremely interesting experience. i wish i had my write-up sitting here in front of me (rather, i have an extremely well-crafted egg salad/lettuce/tomato wrap, cold cup of coffee (a #2 day), and diet vanilla pepsi in close proximity).

...ok anyhow.. back to business. it was different than anything i've experienced (palm readings, all types of horoscopes, info about moons and risings, tarot, etc etc)

why? well, mainly because there was a serious focus on your previous life and its effect on your current one.

now, if you think that all that is a load of sh*t, then you might not buy into, or enjoy, any of this. so then, stop reading...

if not, this is what i was told: each fetus, upon conception (i would guess) chooses who they want to be born to and the exact time of their birth. once born, each individual has what one would call karmic lessons. these are lessons from your previous life that were left unresolved in that previous life. thus, you are coming back once again, to complete/ resolve them. for example, my friend chloe's life lessons are the numbers 2 and 8. each number stands for something different. two = relationships. 8 = balance between spirit and material worlds. what that means is that she was born into her current life with a purpose, a goal, to complete- and this goal is to work on both relationships and balancing her spiritual and material worlds. interesting, i think. and if i might add, her life is freakishly based around certain relationships and various difficulties in balancing her spiritual and material worlds (and she's a libra nonetheless, geez).

now, what about me, you might be wondering. why am i going into great depth about this here chloe's karmic lessons when this blog is, in fact, danielle's. well, because, i have not a thing to say about my own. in having my numbers done, i have learned that i was born into this world with no (meaning zero, zip, zilch) karmic lessons. really, it can happen.

what my numerologist told me was that i didn't actually need to come back, i chose to come back. for one reason or another, i felt i should be here. i felt i had something i needed to give to the world. could have been for many reasons, could be just one. but, i will have to figure out what my purpose truly is, on my own (is what she said).

in all honesty, all i could think was..."well, isn't that something. i've been trying to figure that out for 25 years now." what is my purpose? life long goals? great questions. so, i was left with these questions just sitting there, lingering about in my head....

i've read zillions of write-ups on the characteristics of aquarians and virgos and caps and all of the signs, for that matter, and each time i read one i walk away satisfied. i fit the bill. or someone i know most certainly does. i am a true aquarius [free-spirited, creative (i like to think), unique (again...i like to think), and i LOVE my space] with a virgo moon (yes, i'm anal. i LOVE organization. and i'm sometimes critical) and i hide under the guise of my capricorn rising (you'd never know i was an aquarius b/c i come off quite serious, driven, etc). and that's that. its all true. and satisfying. and me.

so you can only imagine where the numerology initially left me. take a guess....

yup- confused. i have no purpose?! i have to figure it out myself?! thanks. and thanks. i sure do love these numbers (that i don't even have).

but now...with a few weeks of newly realized purposeless living under my belt, i've come to see this whole experience in a different light. if i chose to be here, then i ought to be performing acts of kindess while i can, truly affecting others, living it up, right?

that's what i thought too. so, in that case, i'm off to become a pirate. yes, a pirate.

okay, maybe not...yet.

honestly though, a couple of silly numbers truly have changed my life. already. hell, i started this here blog because of them. and i'm reconsidering my career choices. because, you know what...as cliche as it may sound...you only life once...